The past week has been so tiring. Emotionally I am just spent. Nothing extraordinary, just life...people...unloving attitudes. Probably the same stuff you are all dealing with, because I know it is hard for us all.
So, though I had other things on my list for today, I played instead. Don't misunderstand, I called Dee too. She totally gets it. She is going through it too. Same stuff, second verse same as the first.
Last year my word/goal for the year was joy. I have been contemplating how to sum up what I learned, without sounding too negative. What I learned is truly a positive thing, it just looses much in translation.
I fell so short of clearly understanding joy. There was no mastery whatsoever. For quite some time I have found that very discouraging. I finally pulled up my big girl panties and asked myself what the Lord wanted me to learn from the past year.
The main thing that I forgot, was to rest. I need to rest in Jesus daily. Sometimes that is mentally realizing that I don't have to make it happen. He does. Many times that is physically listening to my body and stopping to rest. No one can have joy while tired and stressed to the limit and still trying to do it all.
I can't fix it all.
I can't know where it all is.
I can't clean it all.
I can't teach it all.
I can't cook it all.
I can't sew it all.
I can't be it all.
He didn't create me with the ability to solve it all. My mind is not created to dwell on it all. I will short circuit. My job is to trust Him, and love Him enough to obey His word.
He can fix it.
I don't know if He sews, but He is amazing at knitting!
In Him it all came to be.
I need to rest in that. That is my word for the year. Rest. So if the blog goes quiet at times. You know what I am up to!
On a lighter note, I am totally paying penance for laughing at Dee dumping all her scraps on the floor to sort through them!
Shoulder to shoulder Dee, you and me!